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Just give me a kiss. Let it be the last memory I have with you. I know that I always ask too much of you, and thats why you're leaving me.
Through out our relationship I've always asked so much of you. Hold me, touch me, love me...stay with me. Maybe it finally got to the point where you noticed..Where you wanted change. I deserve it I guess.
Your gone now...and Im all alone with my memories. All the times I begged you to stay with me, all the times you left me to cry. I know you cry. You never showed me but I know you do. Are you crying now or enjoying this?
You left me with a kiss, it was the sweetest thing ever to be tasted. Everything you've done to me and for me will never be forgotten. I'll always love you until Im buried. You'll never return to a needy person like me. I cant fathom why you stayed to begin with.
To me your an angel in disguise. You pulled me out of death and brought me new life. You gave me a reason to wake up smiling in the morning. I learned from you the world isnt that cruel of a place...but then again my suffering started with you.
I can leave now..leave to where I deserve. Hell shouldn't be too bad after what I've done to you. I deserve it after tainting an angel, ruining my family. They never hurt me and loved me more than I deserved. I ruined the life of the demon who twisted my mind. The succubus who showed me how dull and gray life was. I ruined the life of the angel who was my protector.
Im glad you left...it makes leaving easier for me. It makes forgetting easier...but I'll never forget you, your touch, your kiss...If you decided to come back, you'd find I had already left. My memories and my heart would be gone and only a shell would be left.
Through out our relationship I've always asked so much of you. Hold me, touch me, love me...stay with me. Maybe it finally got to the point where you noticed..Where you wanted change. I deserve it I guess.
Your gone now...and Im all alone with my memories. All the times I begged you to stay with me, all the times you left me to cry. I know you cry. You never showed me but I know you do. Are you crying now or enjoying this?
You left me with a kiss, it was the sweetest thing ever to be tasted. Everything you've done to me and for me will never be forgotten. I'll always love you until Im buried. You'll never return to a needy person like me. I cant fathom why you stayed to begin with.
To me your an angel in disguise. You pulled me out of death and brought me new life. You gave me a reason to wake up smiling in the morning. I learned from you the world isnt that cruel of a place...but then again my suffering started with you.
I can leave now..leave to where I deserve. Hell shouldn't be too bad after what I've done to you. I deserve it after tainting an angel, ruining my family. They never hurt me and loved me more than I deserved. I ruined the life of the demon who twisted my mind. The succubus who showed me how dull and gray life was. I ruined the life of the angel who was my protector.
Im glad you left...it makes leaving easier for me. It makes forgetting easier...but I'll never forget you, your touch, your kiss...If you decided to come back, you'd find I had already left. My memories and my heart would be gone and only a shell would be left.
If you've talked tome or read my poems youalready know Im a suicide surviour. So when I say I had suicide on the brain you most likelywill think 'OMG are you ok? Poor baby what happened?' when really I wasn't contemplating killing myself. Its more of thinking what I did to his life.
I've realized how much damage loving some one has. Yousee...Micheals living with us now after being put through hell. His parents, welldad, kicked him out of the house for loving me but they're better now...i guess. Im not allowed to talk with Micheal's dad so I reallydont know.
SeeI started feeling guilty for what Imdoing to him. Before..he had a girlfriend who was and still is wonderful. He was in sports, he had fun and had his parents love. Iruined it for him because I did. He neverplanned on loving thelower classman who wanted to kill him. Seriously, he dropped everything for me and risked it all...making me a selfish twit. Over the 2 years we've been togeather he's put up with the ennis guys(micheals old school) bruatizling me, my sucicidal thoughts, and all the hell he's put on himself for loving me.
He just...i think he deserves someone different because everytime I look in his eyesI see pain. He hides his tears for me and now that we're engaged I was praying he'd show them more but hehides it from me still. I know he loves me..we've been together through a lotof stupid crap but still...I cant help but think that oneday he'll meet someone who doesnt give him this and loves himlike i do. Then he'll leave and never come back.
You may not get what im goingat...he's my first and i want him to always be my last. evenif that means I'll suffer..I want him happy. *sighs* Im sorry for this b.s. Im trying to hurry this up before he wakes up and starts making the feeling leave. I just..love hurts. I'd say dont fall in love but really I would saydont fall in love with the prefect stranger...
Codi-boi
I dont thinkit needs to be matured
I've realized how much damage loving some one has. Yousee...Micheals living with us now after being put through hell. His parents, welldad, kicked him out of the house for loving me but they're better now...i guess. Im not allowed to talk with Micheal's dad so I reallydont know.
SeeI started feeling guilty for what Imdoing to him. Before..he had a girlfriend who was and still is wonderful. He was in sports, he had fun and had his parents love. Iruined it for him because I did. He neverplanned on loving thelower classman who wanted to kill him. Seriously, he dropped everything for me and risked it all...making me a selfish twit. Over the 2 years we've been togeather he's put up with the ennis guys(micheals old school) bruatizling me, my sucicidal thoughts, and all the hell he's put on himself for loving me.
He just...i think he deserves someone different because everytime I look in his eyesI see pain. He hides his tears for me and now that we're engaged I was praying he'd show them more but hehides it from me still. I know he loves me..we've been together through a lotof stupid crap but still...I cant help but think that oneday he'll meet someone who doesnt give him this and loves himlike i do. Then he'll leave and never come back.
You may not get what im goingat...he's my first and i want him to always be my last. evenif that means I'll suffer..I want him happy. *sighs* Im sorry for this b.s. Im trying to hurry this up before he wakes up and starts making the feeling leave. I just..love hurts. I'd say dont fall in love but really I would saydont fall in love with the prefect stranger...
Codi-boi I dont thinkit needs to be matured
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i love this more that i can even put into words!